No Air

Remember when we were closer, I told you how much I cared? Well, I'll always be concerned. This sentence won't be valid any longer, and that's something I have to remind myself. I found out too much tonight, and I don't want to continue the heartbreak. The whole issue seems to turn my life routines upside down, and makes me lose focus on other things in life. Perhaps you'll be happier being a huge flirt. I think it's true when people say that all guys are the same. I can't wait for you any longer because I'd rather be with someone who loves me than to be with someone that I love. I do feel sorry and indebted to that guy who has always been around /:

I'm feeling so darn sad tonight and some people are totally rubbing into it without knowing what had happened. Fyou all who have made my heart ache further.

23 March 2006

A sudden thought just came into my mind. It's regarding the Swiss Chinese Orchestra's concert at Victoria Theatre two years ago on this very day. The Swiss Orchestra Nite will commence today too, within a couple of minutes. I thought about the scene when I saw Lemon as I was walking down the staircase with my younger sister in hand, and all I could see was Lemon and just nothing else. It's like how the whole world fades away with this special person emitting immense light. I can feel this little creature (my imagination) tugging at my heart. I feel some pain deep inside me, I think I miss Lemon, and probably as a friend and not a crush. I was studying when it struck me that today's exactly two years after the day Lemon seriously caught my eye. My heart's in a horrendously miserable state, I can feel it shrinking and cringing. The whole scenario ended up in me not being able to continue my revision because my soul's not within me.

I know/think I'll regret not going for the Swiss Orchestra Nite today because Lemon's probably going. Mummy has been bugging me for the entire day to support my school's Orchestra's performance, but I wasn't really interested. Yunfeng gave me a free concert ticket, but I've wasted it because I'm not in the mood to watch a performance, and honestly, CO music puts me off to sleep. All right, I'm not going to ask around about the outcome because there's a 50% probability of me being moody for the next few days/weeks/months. There's no way I can salvage this situation because it'll take an hour for me to pop over to Republic Polytechnic and the concert might have already started for a long time.

Jang Geun Suk makes life really pleasant Y

Just marry me, marry me.

Yuhan arranged a meet-up with JunYang yesterday, but she couldn't make it in the end since it's a must for her to attend Mdm Tang's remedial lesson. As a result, I had to go and collect the ACJC funfair coupons from him. I got Qinxin to accompany me 'cause it was raining so heavily and the shrill coldness never fail to send shivers down my spine. Anyway, Qinxin and I agreed that JunYang was awfully cute, attractive, handsome, tall etc. Yuhan was extremely remorseful so she's getting her love to come back again.. by purchasing more coupons from him in the name of her friends. Hahahaha she's actually forking out money!

Annual Cross-Country was commenced at Chinese Garden today : ) Dad gave Mandy and I a ride over to Chinese Garden. I've told him to drop us off at Chinese Garden MRT station, but instead, he drove us over to Lakeside MRT station. Mandy and I were really careless to realise only after like 5 minutes of waiting /: It was raining cat and dogs before the race could actually start so everyone assembled in this place which reminded me of the abodes in Hwangjinni Y. The race was sort of okay, but stitches visited me halfway through the race. Oh well. I managed to get the 24th position which was relatively satisfying. Congrats to Swiss Flamers for the achievements Y, (especially my Tall!). I have to say I'm a little disappointed in myself, but I'm glad that I've tried my best and I feel a little weird 'cause I don't have much motivation this year ):

Many guys who really wanted to get into the top twenty positions couldn't make it although they had put in their all. Desmond ran non-stop but he had to settle for the 102th position :O

Had lunch at Causeway Point's Seoul Garden with Yuhan meimeizx, Jolene, Jessica and Edna. Jolene and I headed up the the cinema so we could purchase our tickets first and I saw some shortass with his girlfriend. She's probably nice, but I know you're not. (I wish he could stop fabricating stories that are totally insane, 'cause I don't know when I could get a stick and poke it right through his dick.) The restaurant reeks of the pungent smell of gas.. so the meal started off quite bad. We were sooooo deprived of food so we got a lot of yummy chicken, and I got my delicious vegetables. We ate for almost two hours, and I swear my skin was tugging at my stomach.

Step Up 2 was fabulous and it's a must-watch :D It's worth every single penny and my youth! When Channing Tatum appeared (like finally) in the only few scenes, I started screaming my lungs out and I could feel the adrenaline rushing through every body part of mine. He's so tall and muscular and cute and good-looking and talented and he's like a teddy bear. I totally love guys who are like teddy bears because they look so huggable and nice to cuddle with. The songs and dance were awesome too. (I think I shall cut this short because I really have to sleep soon.)

You crept into my heart announced, supplying it with drugs. Sometimes I feel as if I'm on cloud nine, but sometimes, I feel like the withdrawal symptoms have come to get me in rehab. I know you've tried your best today yah :)

Cassie - Is It You

Y

I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

Is it you? is it you?
Maybe you're the one I've been waiting for
Could you be the one for me?
Could you be the one I need?

I'm looking for someone to share my pain (Uh)
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's heart is right
And I'm looking for someone

Take for grant
How much I care (How much I care)
And appreciates that I'm there
Someone who listens
And someone I can call who isn't afraid of thought to share

Chemical Reaction, will it last?

I smiled, then looked away, embarrassed that I was caught sneaking peeks of you. But, I remember that you were looking back too.

I just received a call from this distant-relative and his voice was just so sickeningly familiar. Yes, I just said that it was sickening so induced the Macdonald's meal I've eaten this morning to shoot up from my stomach through my oesophagus out of my mouth. He tries to be friendly although my family isn't even in contact with his so like, what the hell and let's end the pointless conversation.

I know I've gotten over Lemon not very long ago, probably about a month ago or something. Now there's another guy who entered my dream one night last week. I thought that was bad enough. However, what's worse is that I realised he has already conquered my heart. I stacked bricks around my heart to build a tall and sturdy wall, but with one touch, he made the wall crash to the ground. I think I've never told him how much he got me running non-stop, like there's never going to be a finishing line.

Y 장근석

Are you kidding? Of course I miss you without having you to remind me. It's a voluntary action.